Further developments

Mistress has instructed me to write and tell everyone that I have begun turning my thoughts away from my former male organs as a source of pleasure and focusing instead on my sissy pussy. Now, when I become unbearably horny, I use a dildo on myself rather than stroking that little thing. And I like it! Mistress is quite pleased.

On a related note, Mistress is planning our next time together. She seems to be settled on a manicure, pedicure, bra fitting and makeover at a makeup counter so all the shoppers can watch. She is still tossing around the idea of taking me to a spa for more beauty treatments or possibly a colonic.

This will be the one and only time She will allow me in public still dressed as a man. But once I have proper female clothing, I will have to wear it and not my boy clothes. However, I have a Tshirt that is pink and says "Sissy" on the front in black script. I will have to wear this so that everyone we meet knows who and what I really am.

She is also hoping that a change of employment for Her will result in more time with me so She can enjoy my reactions to being in public as the sissy I truly am. I suspect that with all the running around we will be doing, lunch at a restaurant is in order. More humiliation for me and amusement for Her.

While I take some time off from my job to have a physical and do some housekeeping of my own, I will be picking up a few items for Mistress. She is eagerly anticipating some new canes, a paddle, four quart enema bag and nozzle set (if they have it), funnel and penis gags and an armbinder to restrain me. The armbinder is a special order item and I paid extra to have it shipped in overnight so that I can pick it up when I get the other items. Should Mistress remember the toys She saw on Medicaltoys.com, I can have those shipped to Her home so they will be available for use upon my return in October.

Well, that's all the time I have for now, it's back to the grindstone for me!

Ta ta!

Brianna

Further thoughts

As I sit here in Nephi, UT, I cannot help but plan for the next steps in my transformation. Ever since Mistress sent me a link to a doctor who specialises in TG hormone therapy I've been reading obsessively. All about hormones, anatomy, breast implants and electrolysis. Sometimes more than I wanted to know. The doctor's website has a video of breast augmentation on a TG woman. The outcome was impressive but the actual operation was BLECH! To think that I will have to undergo that as well. But at least I'll have a nice rack when it's over.

Logistics seem to be the biggest barrier. The doctor wants a few consultations and baseline bloodwork before he prescribes anything. Makes sense to me. But it's hard to stop and get the blood work done; one needs an appointment for a doctor, money to pay for them (my insurance doesn't cover TG issues) and those are hard to come by as I roll along. I think I'll have to do it all when I visit Mistress in January. She can make the appt for me with a local doctor and I will bring along enough money to pay for it.

Note to self: Mistress's birthday is next Monday. DO SOMETHING!

Notes on chastity

Well, it has been ten days in chastity now. This is the first time I have been locked up like this. Oh, I've done it for a few hours, 12 max, but never this long term. It gets tougher to handle every day but I do it anyway, to please my Mistress.

I keep thinking I've hit rock bottom and things will get easier from now on and each time I realize that I *can* become more frustrated. Mistress enjoys hearing about this and I make sure to describe my feelings in vivid detail to Her. Then She makes things even worse by dropping hints about what She has planned for my next visit.

She knows this drives me crazy, imagining all sorts of horrible humiliations. I think anticipation of something can be worse than the actual experience. I know there will not be enough time to do them all, b ut trying to guess which She will choose is maddening.

And every time I let my i magination run away with me I have to bring myself under control by reminding myself that I asked, nay, BEGGED for this for a year and a half before She finally granted me my wish. And part of it is that I not be allowed to back out at all, until She has finished with my transformation. Thus, I have no real choice in what happens to me. Mistress may not get around to doing item A and C on Her list this time but WILL get to item B and D-F and will save the rest for another visit. I can be sure that eventually, I will experience EVERYTHING She can dream up.
And I cannot forget that there are two other Mistresses involved with my subjugation and feminisation who also are scheming to humiliate me publicly and privately and I must also obey them or risk Mistress's displeasure.

Mistress has asked me to bring Her a cane, because She likes them. Even though they scare the heck out of me, I will present myself with a carefully selected cane just for Her and will willingly submit to a caning, just because She wants to test it out.

There are a few other items on my list to bring Her and I am calling my friend back home to make sure they are all available for me when I return. I will give more detail on those later.

Please allow me to share with you a before and after picture of my chastisement.




Beware, once you start down the chastity path, it will control you forever! I am beginning to look forward to my hormone treatments as they will reduce and eventually eliminate my erections and thus my discomfort. I hope.

See you all next time!

Welcome!

Welcome to my first ever blog.

Herein I will be documenting my thoughts and feelings as well as sharing the experiences I have as the property of my Mistress. She is transforming me into a complete sissy, to become a lifestyle, not a fantasy. She has ordered me to keep a diary of the process for Her perusal and this will allow both Her and you to read and enjoy.

I will be tweaking this blog for a while as I learn how. Please bear with me! Thank you!

Sissy Brianna